I just read my last two posts which we’re way early in the beginning of the year and wow has a lot changed! Incase anyone was wondering the Ranger Game I was so excited for sucked.. I got my lip tattooed and basically the whole thing is faded except for ONE letter…stupid..and its way hard to believe that I said “I love my job”. I have no idea what was frustrating me then, but I sure know what’s frustrating me now.
Anyways, 2010 is coming to a close and with the exception of the beginning of the year and a few mishaps along the way, this year pretty much kicked ass. Come to think of it 2010 changed my life actually. I don’t think I have anything philosophical to really say, except traveling is one of THE most incredible things life has to offer and changes who you are and how you see things.
Okay, well I have procrastionated finishing my shakespeare essay long enough.
Goodnight World.
So, 2010 honestly…you still aren’t the best thing..Two weeks ago my family and i had to bury my grandpa. It was one of the hardest and longest weeks i’ve ever been through, but death makes you see things in different lights. You know the people who love you are surrounding you and protecting you dead or alive. Him dying has definitely made me say “I love you” a lot more and i think thats a good thing.
I began school today and sat through the most freezing and boring class, but once class was over i got these papers about my work-study and after i’ve worked all my weeks at the school its enough to cut what i owe school in half, which is pretty sick. So that was good news.
My three purchases of 2010 thus far are NY Ranger Tickets for the day after my birthday, which shoulddd be a good time, a fake ID which costed me a whopping $125(now if only i could purchase some confidence to go along with it) and a lip tattoo. Yes, i know its retarded and I’m pissed that one of my letters is already faded -_- but whatever thats just how this year is proceeding to go.
I love my job, but recently so many thing there have begun to stress me out. I can’t even begin to write. My relationships with people are definitely changing. Sometimes I feel like I’m look at as a little girl, who walks in all naive and giddy. Does everyone love my “positive attitude” i’m sure, but I’m not a little girl and don’t deserve to be treated like one by anyone. I’m pretty good at my job and for the most part i like it there. I’m very much I can do things on my own and i guess i seem like a bitch when i refuse help, but whatever.
I’m going to be 20! gah, weird. I need to start having like REAL fun, these past years the fun factor has been progressing, but i still feel like there’s a chunk of adolescence that i missed. I’m barely in trouble and to be honest…i want to get into some. the best nights of your life are the ones you barely remember…this is beginning to sound like i need to be shwasted…and to be honest with you…i actually need to be. its a friday night and im sitting on tumblr. i just bought a new fake id what the fuck am i doing?
Well its the new year and its the same shit… I feel like winter is never a good season and its always so dreary out. My birthday is in February and you’d think i’d be excited for it but i’m turning 20 which means no more being a teenager and still not old enough to walk into a bar and order myself drink…so its a pretty dull age if you ask me. I’m going to the Rangers game the day after which should be a good time and an even better time if they get themselves together and start winning. I don’t have a whole lot to look forward this year actually.. 2009 was pretty okay in my book, but 2010 isn’t looking too bright. My new years eve sucked and its the 3rd day of january and i’m already bitching. I’ve got no intelligent thoughts today…only whining. so i’m sorry to anyone who chooses to read this. I hate being in a good mood and only to have to crash and burn. fuckk thiss
